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breaking news...

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 18:13:44 GMT

ms. laarni, our hr head met us this afternoon, 2 break 2 good news... 1 for us, 1 for her...
the first news is that, we are going to have an hr director who can check on all hr concerns...

the second was... that she's leaving the company in 1 month time.. it was the first time that i encountered that my head would be leaving us..
well i had a glimpse of that idea last saturday during the training..
while we were having a picture, she whispered to me na "shylz.. prepare" so what does that mean.. d mawawala sya.. gosh.. its really hard to let go of some one so nice.. well, she may be a building away, but syempre, iba pa rin if she's there to protect us..

since iwas a little malungkot, dinaan nnman sa kain.. ryan and i had late dinner, mga 12:30 na.. we had sisig.. and 2 rice syempre...

im happy for ms. laarni, but at the same time, am sad..

saturday pig out night

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 15:06:16 GMT

it was again our pig out night.. haha. that's our saturday get together.. as usual, food trip with of roy, ivy ryan and of course me.. we went to harbour square, ate at tapa king and had dessert at icebergs.. we were looking for the stand nga of the dried pusit, unfortunately, wala.. the last time we had those was when we were in fourth year college.. that was like 2 1/2 years ago..

so we went home nlng, had sleep over at ivy's.. as usual.. well sad to say we wont be piggin' out next saturday coz ivy's leaving for cebu on tuesday and she'll be back pa on august..

well we were also plannig to had overnight at corregidor.. yes.. i haven't been there, buti pa si alody (my younger sister) she spent two or i think three nights at corregidor..

hope the plan would materialize...

recap from last week's and last last weeks' mem'ries

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 09:45:09 GMT

last march 8, 2006 was our 2nd year anniversary, both of us were busy then. from our office i went straight to ivy's place, had dinner then stayed there for a whilee then ryan arrive there at 12:30 am of march 9, went out for a while to celebrate our anniversary..

march 10 was my last day at mighty. though it was not the last day coz i planned to go back the following day
march 11, i turned over everything to bheng..

march 13 was my first day as full time employee, thought i started week earlier... am still adjuusting, though i alreafy know the work, but not all..
hope i'll like it there..

march 18 i went to tony galvez's to have a hair cut and hav my hair dyed.. of course to releive stress.. ivy(mah bestfriend) did it foe me, she's a student of tony galvez's...

now am a red haired w/ highlights, 22 year old girl, employed @ BPO Int'l.. haha

This is the most painful part of my life..

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 17:42:34 GMT

Today marks our ~~"supposedly"~~ 2nd Year anniversary..

I was sad, disappointed and mad, kc despite of the gulo between us nakuha nya pang lumabas and gumimik.
he told me they went to sstar city.. i was disappointed because before nung inaaya ko sya sbi nya ayaw nya dun and takot sya sumakay sa mga rides pro mga friends nya na yaya sya..

frustrating on my part... sbi nya he missed me nung nandun sya.. y didn't he made an effort of texting me asked me if i want to come, while his friends can bring their partners sya hindi niya ko kya pakita or pakilala sa friends nya.. who am i any way, am not in the position to feel this way, that is why i was mad, mad at myself, why do i still prioritize him knowing i was only his last resort..

what else would i do, cry the night away...

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 13:12:37 GMT

All relationships are put to the fire. There is no such thing as a constantly happy couple. There is no such thing as a constantly happy relationship. All of us, at one point in our affairs will have to go through a cleansing process, which, hopefully, will make us better persons.

Let us always remember that our relationships are put to the test to make stronger and better persons out of us. Second to love, the next most important ingredient of a successful relationship is communication. Many would agree that there are certain things in a relationship that are better kept unsaid. But I don't believe in that. The moment we lie about our feelings or the wrong that we have done, we begin to build a wall of bricks around ourselves. Every time we hide something out of fear, we add a brick to that wall. Soon we will be total strangers to the very people we vowed to be with the rest of our lives. We will start to hurt inside until we can no longer bear the pain. Until we regretfully give up the very relationships that we wanted to keep.

Communication is the lifeblood of any relationship. If we cannot bravely express our innermost fears, doubts, and insecurities to the people we love then our ties are doomed to fail sooner or later. I would rather be hurt by a person who is honest than be hurt in by someone who betrayed my trust. Many couples suffer in silence because they are afraid that opening up would just make things worst. They keep their feelings to themselves until their affection towards each other diminishes to the point where separation becomes inevitable.

Remember, there is no burden so heavy that it cannot be lightened by an open, honest and peaceful exchange of thoughts and feelings. Fights are inevitable. Oftentimes, we hurt those we love because we insist on protecting our own feelings. Selfishness is a poison that recklessly kills relationships. It is only when we set aside our pride, arrogance and anger that we are able to deal with raging emotions sensibly and peacefully. There would be a lot of times when we would be tempted to think only of the things that would make us happy. Most of the time, the happiness we get from satisfying our own want is happiness that we deprive others of. Our joy is their pain and our rise is their fall.

Some relationships survived one of the most difficult trials. They owe it to God who has watched over them all throughout the most trying times of their lives. They understood because they listened to what each of them were trying to say. They realized what was going on because they talked about their feelings. They hurt each other badly because they both became selfish. But the pain felt was washed away by the fact that love, among all the feelings that they shared, still remained the strongest pillar with which they have built their relationship upon.

Indeed, beautiful things will always be built of the foundations of pain. We are strengthened by adversity and seasoned by trials in our relationships. It is not how much pain we feel that matters. What matters is that we are able find a space in our hearts to forgive those who have hurt us. It is not how hard we have stumbled that matters. What matters is that we muster enough courage to stand on our feet and try again. It doesn't matter if we have found love and lost it. What matters more is the joy that feeling brought us. What matters most is that we loved at all.

Love alone is capable of uniting beings in such a way as to complete and fulfill them, for it alone takes them and joins them by what is deepest in themselves.

Valentine's Day

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 10:36:36 GMT

i used to celebrate hearts day with friends, i seldom stay at home.. its a typical ordinary day for me
but 2 years ago, heart's day became a real big deal for me.. since i have someone to spend it with.

last year we celebrated it with a sablay valentine's celebration well its sweet pro sablay pa rin,
i don't know i was embarassed kc he waited for me sa labas with flowers on his hand. i know he was
disappointed so i went to their place to apologize.

this year, i'd rather take the embarrassment than have a sablay valentine's day.
actually we did not celebrated it with a dinner, coz he had to do this website thingy.. so we went to roy's
place with ivy of course (we had a simple dinner at SM north then went straight to nova
for the overnight.. Ivy made me her model on hairstyle and make-up, while ryan and roy were doing the website

can't believe they've finished it in just 2 hours kasama na dun yung sidebars ng pag lalaro..no wonder,
that's his job, he deigsns websites..then went to sleep, then woke up the following day, i was on a halfday,
didn't got much sleep, but woke up at 6 am though.

well it wasn't a romantic heart's day celebration but it was nice at least i had the chance to be with mah hunny
till the next day, and had a post valentine breakfast at SM North again..

i was tired, it nice though.. what a new way of celebrating the heart's day

Happy Valentine's day everyone!!!

To all the Men out there!!!

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 15:40:25 GMT

Realize that the girl holding onto you, is PERFECT in their own special way.

The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you..

Always remember that.

She can always walk away and up, getting someone else who can love her more.

For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already, but she is rejecting, a maybe perfect love for you.

There might also be someone out there, who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now, fufill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.

Understand that.

Girls have a huge guilty concience. Imagine this, guys.....she loves you not because you are good looking, have money, buy her things, make her parents happy, or that you have a car or bike.

It's because, she loves you.... and FOR WHO YOU ARE. She loves the way you laugh, the way you sleep, the way you hug and hold her, make every little bad thing go away. That's why she loves you.

Always remember that.

There might be another guy, who wants to have what you have. So dont let your relationship run wrong. You might never have another chance with that girl. Dont regret when you've lost a gem!....

weekend with ryan's family and the girls

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 00:16:48 GMT

Last Saturday we attended the christening of ryan's nephew, it was held at chinatown's best foods @ banawe q.c. Almost all of the visitors were on ryan's side, konti ln sa side ung cousin-in-law nya.. well as usual, everyone is asking him, when is he going to get married, syempre, syper hide nman ako, its flatteting but at the same time prang frustrating,kc they like me because of me or because they know my family? haay,
then went straight to Malolos for our emergency meeting.

then after that i met to rhea's place.. la lng kwentuhan ln with rei, jacq, eufrie, me ryan and bhong ( rei's bf)
well, tawanan, reminiscin the elementary years, looking at our elementary yearbook.. Saya..

we planned to go out on the 4th of feb., hopefully that would materialize..

am here at the ofis, knina pa 7:33 am, aga noh, coding kc eh!!

wel as usual wala nnman kming electricity.. kainis..

last week's recap

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 10:56:16 GMT

well the first 2 weeks of this year isn't really good..

oh, there were a lot of quarrels bet the 2 of us, well, i dnt visit mah blog that often unless i need some emotional release, yeah, this is mah outlet aside from my notebook of sama ng loob! and also if i want to share some happy moments, last week was a mixture of happy and sad stories..

saturday, jan 7, i met up with mah college girls, we had a post-christmas party celebration, had a little chit chats,as usual kumain ng kumain and a lot of picture taking, but i need to get home early, coz twas our monthsary the ff-day and tampo ang lolo ko i forgot kc na it was already 12 mn of january 8, actually d ko naman nakalimutan, late lang alarm nung fon ko.. *palusot* *wink* pictures, next tym.. i'll have it posted..

sunday, jan 8, im making lambing kay ryan coz he's mad at me, well we end up din going to the mall and had dinner.. we ate at rai rai ken... yummy.. we both love japanese and chinese cuisine..

monday, jan 9, we watched mah brother sing sa school affair, he's the only singer among the 4 of us..

tuesday, were was i on tuesday? hmm? oh, i was here at ofis nag oovertym..

wednesday,i went to bir, kso late na, kc the stupid subcon of pldt na magkakabit ng dsl ay hindi marunong mag troubleshoot, they almost destroyed our pc..

thursday, undertym ako, mommy asked me to pay some real property taxes, xempre, runner ako eh.. then we had this away na ewan ko bkit kailangan pagawayan.

friday, well i wanted to talk to someone unfortunately all of them ae busy,so i just locked mah self in the room then cried the night away, yeah!

Saturday, it was the night before the grand fiesta.. and bati na kmi ni ryan, we joined the procession, kakapagod nga lang..

sunday, it was fiesta, but the wala kaming electricity, there was a leak in the transformer where our electric line is connected, so we rushed to baksig's house para makiligo, then go straight to ryan's place to have dinner, i didnt slept at home kc nga mainit, but i can say lst nyt and this morning was one of the best times of mah life..

To all the Men out there!!!

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 10:06:10 GMT

Realize that the girl holding onto you, is PERFECT in their own special way. The way she laughs.. The way she sleeps.. The way she loves you.. The way she tries to please you.. Always remember that. She can always walk away and up, getting someone else who can love her more. For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already, but she is rejecting, a maybe perfect love for you. There might also be someone out there, who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now, fufill her every need and love her as much as she loves you. Understand that. Girls have a huge guilty concience. Imagine this, guys.....she loves you not because you are good looking, have money, buy her things, make her parents happy, or that you have a car or bike. It's because, she loves you.... and FOR WHO YOU ARE. She loves the way you laugh, the way you sleep, the way you hug and hold her, make every little bad thing go away. That's why she loves you. Always remember that. There might be another guy, who wants to have what you have. So dont let your relationship run wrong. You might never have another chance with that girl. Dont regret when you've lost a gem!.... "Got this fro mah friend marie's journal"

The year that was...(2005)

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 02:31:08 GMT

Yeah, its 2006 already..
Let's Make a recap last December 2005

First Three days of december was tiring.. i participated on the 23rd SEA Games. i was currently on leave..

The 2nd week of December was a mixture of bad and good..
I was almost single that time.. "almost" but we decided to end the stage and move one stage higher.. it means we were able to overcome the trials... this week was also My 22nd birthday, celebrated it with ryan and mah family.. the following days, i treat my officemates for lunch.. also in this week was the company's christmas party.. including the factory workers..

The following week, the 3rd week was the christmas party for office based employees of the head office and the plant office..

Then it was Christmas, i bought a wallet at guess, its my gift for ryan, then it was new year, ow, wait it was thea's wedding, on the 28th i was one of the secondary sponsors.yeah.. mejo dami nga lng palpak..

on the 29th ryan and i went to rob to pay our cellphone bills and he bought me 2 mango tops.. one white and one black.. it was his christmas present.. i don't know if its for my birthday and for christmas, or just for christmas.. *whatever* it love both of it also we had dinner at duke of york.. yumyum.. i love the pizza.. its good..

on the 30th we had our annual family reunion in the tan-franco side.. yes its a dinner at tito jessie's multipurpose house.. its in front of their place at acropolis.. i think its the garage for his luxury cars, sports cars and expensive bikes.. huh..see he has 3 porsche, a bmw 745i and alot of bmw and harley bikes..
sayang ryan wasn't able to come, he love cars..

then it was 31st..new year's eve.. we were preparing almost the whole day.. we had inuman with jen, alody, dhucks, me and ryan.. and brandy ang tinira nmin, naubos nga ang isang long neck..

oh. its already 7pm, gotta go..

christmas party everywhere

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 04:43:42 GMT

its almost christmas, i've already attended several christmas parties.. we had 3 christmas partied here in the office. haha!

Intellicare's APE

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 10:24:05 GMT

+ HR conducted an Annual Physical Exam to all fiels unit managers and makati based employees.. + grabe sobrang kapagod.. + i'm tired. and i'm sick huhuh!!! =chocolates =rootbeer float =ice cream huhu! cant have those.. i already had no voice!! waaahh

bday

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 10:17:24 GMT

Thanks a mga nag greet.. first to my dad, who was the first one to greet. then my mom.. got a text from cherry and a bday greeting from ryan, though verbally nya sinabi.. michael bayot: happy birthday! shylz_sylph: thanks! shylz_sylph: ofis kaw? michael bayot: yup michael bayot: why? shylz_sylph: la lng po.. hehe cge work na tau.. thanks ulit.. michael bayot: oki. aol messages from ofc mates ernie victa (9:41:18 AM): happy happy birthday and happy blow out shylzfranco (9:43:16 AM): thanks po. ernie victa signed off at 5:58:46 PM. Jenny Hailar (3:03:21 PM): ate shy Jenny Hailar (3:04:04 PM): Happy Birthday! shylzfranco (3:04:59 PM): thanks po ednamadrid04 (3:03:43 PM): hapi birthday! shylzfranco (3:04:39 PM): thanks po ednamadrid04 (3:05:18 PM): blow out namn dyan heheheh shylzfranco (3:06:15 PM): hehehehe.. sa saturday, dinner.. hehehe ednamadrid04 (3:06:33 PM): sa malolos ednamadrid04 (3:06:37 PM): ang layo RyanMSSG (3:03:20 PM): ate bday mo? shylzfranco (3:05:18 PM): bkit po? RyanMSSG (3:05:30 PM): sbi lng po.. RyanMSSG (3:05:33 PM): 22o? RyanMSSG (3:05:37 PM): hapi bday.. shylzfranco (3:13:19 PM): thanks po RyanMSSG (3:13:42 PM): thans lng? kala ko may pamirienda.. RyanMSSG (3:13:44 PM): hehehehe Shylz's Testimonials David | Thursday, December 08, 2005 Wah .. ??!! Juz left and it is birthday already ... ~Sigh .. ( - _ - ) ... Hehe :p Anyway .. Wishing you a very HarPee BerthDae and all the best in Ur Future Undertakings ... ;) Fren frm M'sia ;p

bagaberde night!!!

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 20:23:17 GMT

me and my college peepz decided to have a reunion last saturday, the first ever after 1yr & 8 mos. meeting place is at starbucks megastrip.. the original plan was we'll have dinner then go to sam's place to drink..

we ended up going to bagaberde pasig.. freestyle and u-turn performed.. haha!! its really good having fun with those guys... hmmm.. lets make a count down.. me, ryan, ivy, roy, leah, eric, sammy, ceejae, anna, grace, rheena, cherry and ice..

then leah, ivy, me, ryan and eric went to roy's place, we stayed there till sunday afternoon.. ggrabe i left home 7pm saturday i arrived at 6pm sunday.. 1 hr nlng 1 araw na..

ivy, moi, ceejae and grace

me, ceejae and grace

mah college peepz!

w/jinky vidal of freestyle

rheena & me

me & mah hunny!!!

more pics!!!!

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 17:48:16 GMT

Ang Muse!!! wohoo =p

sportsfest '05 pictures

Monthsary!!!

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 10:41:57 GMT

it was our 20th monthsary.. nagulat ako nung hinintay ako ni ryan sa LRT, we had dinner at wna chai..

btw lolo berting ( daddy's brother) passed away yesterday, ka birthday ko pa nmna xa..

monthsary...

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 10:45:09 GMT

it was our 20th monthsary today..

if yesterday i went to work sooo early.. today, i was late.. actually dpat d ako late.. i was already at buendia before 7.. kso sobrang trafik.. kkinis...

intellicare meeting..

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 10:42:37 GMT

haay.. the meeting with intellicare was soooo boring.. and soooooo long.. our VP did all the talking, me and my manager barely asked questions coz we wanted the meeting to end.. because of that meeting i wasnt able to finish my work..

so early!!!

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 00:01:21 GMT

yes! i am early.. i arrived here at the office at 7:15 yes.. its not me i know.. i didn't expect that i'll be arriving this early.. i usually arrive at 8:20 lates is 8:45.. see it not me..

we left our place at 6:30.. sumabay kc ako sa dad ko.. at 7:55 we were already in buendia.. he just dropped me off at buendia.. still have to get a ride going to prc pasong tamo.. ..

i'm here sitting waiting till its 8:30.. since i got no urgent work, i had time to update my blog...

Letting go of Feelings..

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 18:27:50 GMT

from Mawie's journal

Letting someone go is painful and difficult. There are always questions left unanswered, reasons left unexplained, feelings left unsaid, dreams left unfulfilled, and things left undone. It was the worst feeling in the world. Being unwanted, being unloved, being left out in the cold. knowing things that you never want to learn. Knowing that his love is superficial. one that could not take the test of time and distance. Learning that "forever" is just a myth and that nothing really lasts. Knowing that good things never last. Learning that WHILE YOU WERE LOVING HIM, HE WAS ALREADY IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. It takes forever to get over the feeling of betrayal. Love is so short, and forgetting takes so long.

BEFORE, i believed that there's still a chance of going back together. I've waited until days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and months into years. But nothing happened; i just got hurt even more. The wound just became bigger, and it bled even more. Just because i was wishing, hoping and praying that he'll be back. Until I realized, it's hopeless, it's like asking for the nights to be days. I should let him go. I'm just making my life miserable by holding on to something that's no longer mine. I should accept things as it is. I've realized that not all wishes come true and that not all love stories end with "happily ever after" and that in reality, PEOPLE GET HURT. As the song goes, "Everybody hurts, sometimes..." Although I did not get what i want, I got what i deserve. I got lessons I'll never learn in school. I learned to be strong, to be more mature. I didn't know I was living in a dream until i got zapped back into reality. It changed my perception in love and in life. I learned that LOVING SHOULDN'T BE TOO HARD AND TOO DEEP TO THE POINT OF FORGETTING TO KEEP A LITTLE FOR OURSELVES...

Relationship between Heart and Reason

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 16:24:09 GMT

Dear Heart,

There is a tiny voice that told me last night I couldn’t understand you anymore. You have been awfully quiet for some time now and you have been shutting me off. I can feel you, too, and it is hard for me to understand that you want to go through it alone. We used to be in the same boat struggling over the things but you moved and took a different route. I have always been at you side but this time you opt to differ. I can see your pain and I can feel it, too, not because you are the heart which makes the only one capable of feeling. I am not hard as you sometimes believe me I am. I just have to be like this for both of us, otherwise we would both drown and no one can save us anymore.

Heart, why do you keep on beating on the wrong person all the time? Aren’t you tired of watching them leave you? Aren’t you tired of giving your best and not get anything in return? If your not, then I am…I am tired of giving you excuses so you wouldn’t break. I am tired of saying yes when in fact it is no. I am tired of convincing you when you very well know that I am just lying to make you happy. I am tired of you, for all your broken dreams, your failed relationships and for all your unrequited love. You have so much to give to the person who can never be yours. HEART, weren’t you the one who said that you are sore and wounded? So why are you staying when you can just walk away from all these pain that is consuming you? How can you take it HEART? How can you look at his eyes and not see you in his heart? How can you smile when you feel his caress and know that those touches were meant for someone else? How can you be strong when you’re feeling weak and helpless? How can you possibly love someone who is in love with another girl? He was never yours to begin with so it would be impossible to have him forever…FOREVER is just a word Heart. There is no such thing as forever just goodbyes as inevitable. I have seen you so excited when you he comes to our lives. I was just as excited as you were. I wanted to be the guy we can both in love with. But he is a dream and dreams end. Tell me, wasn’t it good to have a dream everytime you feel like doing so? Like dreams, you have to wake up and face the day. It was enough that he made you feel loved. Just face the reality that someone owns his heart…pushing for it will only make another girl’s heart bleed. I have seen you loved lost and grieved but never healed. Why Heart? What are you so afraid of? It’s time to let go. I know it would be hard…I have never seen you love this way before…so unconditional…of course you have always loved unconditionally but your love for him is different because you wouldn’t listen to me. You used your words against me and that makes me feel helpless. I am just hurt as you are because I can’t make the pain go away. I can’t help you and heal for you…you have to do it alone. You have keep your silence and its deafening. I know you are trying to fool me so I would think you are okay and that I shouldn’t worry…you want me to believe that you are not in pain…remember HEART, there is a thin line that connects us and it would be difficult to deceive one and the other of what is really going on…not that is love…

Always

Your friend,

REASON

My Friend Reason,

Thank you for putting up with me while I go through my journey. It is like battling a demon. The battle is within me and something I feel I could not fight. You were right, I have never felt this way before. You know why I said that? It is because I allowed myself to manipulate all the other system that are within me my power. I shut all the possibilities that one day when I look back this would be my biggest regret. I shut it because I know I would never regret. A love so true has no regrets even if you don’t get what you work so hard for…in the end. That is why I disregard the idea that one day I would have to watch him leave and know that deep within me, he is never coming back. He is in deed a dream…a dream I never wish to end. I am holding on to that dream that is why I wouldn’t want to let go yet, but holding on for as long as I can doesn’t mean holding on forever. I don’t believe in forever neither, that is what I used to because you said there is no such thing, but he made me believe in a lot of things and one of them which was we can stay this way for eternity. A moment with him is forever for more. Forever might be a word but it exists. It is a place where dreams come true…where hope did not go to oblivion, it is a place where kiss heals wounds, where embrace can take away fears, where touch can take away doubts. That is forever and I believe him because I felt it. We may not last another weeks, another months or even years, but he took me to that place where dates are mere numbers you count on to say that this is how long I have him for a moment and that is enough for me though this lifetime. Hopefully I can have him a little longer to lasts another lifetime.

Looking back, you and I have been together in everything and I can never keep a secret from you. You are too wise to be fooled. They say wise people are poor in the matters of the heart. I wish to erase that cliché. It is not true that I choose to beat for wrong people. I just do. You should know better that my beating is involuntary. If I could be held within the palm of the hand, then it could be a lot easier not to give any explanation. But I can’t be and this makes us human so I keep my feet on the ground…the ground by feeling and hurting. You don’t have to make any excuses for me anymore or to lie to me…because regardless of the tears and pain, I am happy. You asked me how can I take it…it is about loving without expecting to be loved back. I may say one thing but mean another…but when I say I love him…I really do. Love is not blind. It is only by the people who hoped to have more when they already have everything…it is about taking everything including those you hope to take away. I don’t have to see myself in his eyes just as long as he sees himself in mine. I don’t have to frown when I know his smiles weren’t mine just as long as I am smiling because of him and he knows it.

I am weak and might be helpless but how many weak and helpless have felt what I am feeling? It is a bliss that no word can contain. To define is to limit the feeling so I just enjoy it. I have loved, lost and grieved and yes I haven’t healed because I don’t want to heal. Healing is as good as forgetting and I wouldn’t want to forget. I have moved on the dealt of life equally well despite my handicap so I don’t need to heal and forget.

Before I end, I want to tell you something you still probably wouldn’t understand but I know in time you would come to see it as I did. Love is not getting what you have not even getting what you deserve. It is getting nothing and somehow getting everything. If you see it the way I did, you wouldn’t ask anymore and still be wise. Perhaps if you can see again through the same eyes we used to look at before through the same window. Maybe they would say we are the first to break the cliché…

Always,

HEART

it was really fun reading mawie's page..

sportsfest '05

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 15:12:46 GMT

today was the opening of our sportsfest.. i was the muse for the Makati Head Office Team.. then, Lheng, (my sis sa HR) was the muse for the Admin-Malolos Team.. rhine (the muse of Miracle team.. actually she's an import from our oracle training group) and i were both in second place and lheng won first place..

ryan didn't know i was the muse, coz when i was chosen as muse for our group (when im still with smart), he didn't liked the idea of wearing super short, short white skirt.. see, he really is strict.. anyway.. enjoy din.. may question and answer pa.. wohoo=p..

first game was MHO vs Admin.. then mho lost against admin sa mens basketball.. i was telling them that we woulkd include my father sa line-up, kso ayaw nila.. bawal daw ang pro.. (actually ex-pro na nga eh.. i was still in elementary when my father quit playing sa PBA) he's now playing with PCFBL a group of phil-chi.. most are businessmen..

pro nakabawi kmi.. we won nman sa women's volleyball.. go MHO!!! haha!!! as if nman mababasa nila noh!!!

sa susunod nlng pics, i wasnt able to borrow the memory card from jay, pra sana ma-i-add ko na yung photos.. maybe next post nlng...

Tin's Birthday

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 05:29:15 GMT

it was tin's birthday the other day, though it was just a simple celebration, i can see nman na nagenjoy si tin.. jen sang 2 songs for tin, ryan sang 2 songs also, and my brother arch sang 3 songs.. and puoro songs ni sarah geronimo and regine velasquez.. he really is a good singer...

have a head count.. tin of course, the bithday celebrant, michelle, adrian, auntie marina and uncle orly.. mommy, mama, papa, moi, ryan, alody, briana, arch, jenny, lancy, auntie beth, auntie stella, ian, auntie marilou, tito ben, jp, patrick and justine.. ngbonding ang tuazon clan..though wer not complete.. at least we enjoyed nman..

some pics taken during tin's birthday!!! jen, alody and me.. tin missing in action...

mario's kitchen--- yumyum

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 09:14:22 GMT

ryan and i went to Rob place manila yesterday to pay our cell phone bills.. i wasnt expecting that he'll accompany me in paying our bills.. un pla he has plan na mag dinner kmi...

we ate at mario's kitchen.. we had their specialty.. paella.. hhmmm.. yumyum.. and sisig... haay, we always spend a lot when it comes to food.. basta, we ate a lot.. we didn't mind na the bill..

then we strolled at rob.. ikot kmi.. i like the denim jacket at top shop.. well im saving my money for christmas.. but though we didn't bought anything, we enjoyed the day nman..